I have been meaning to write a new blog for a while now, but it has been so hard and as I began to write I found that it is impossible to put into words everything that is going on.
How can I explain the day at youth group when our students opened up more than ever? When a student confessed about how they were tired of acting like a perfect Christian, and another who said they weren't sure if they believe in God, when a boy said he struggled with purity, and another with anger. How can I express sitting in starbucks, answering questions about God and why to believe? How do I begin to create the picture of the MTR ride to thanksgiving dinner with a student, and how the Holy Spirit completely led my words? How can I explain the joy I felt when one of the students texted me and asked why getting baptized is important, and when another asked to meet me sometime to discuss Christianity and some questions she has.
How can I put that into words? "um, ya so we were all at youth group and in discussion time the students confessed some things that were on their chest, that had been eating at them, it was awesome you should've been there." You're probably thinking, "Man that is great, God is good, I'm so happy for you guys." No it's not the same, sorry to say but you weren't there. You haven't been spending time with these students for months, so how can I explain something so personal and so stinking amazing and paint a good picture! It makes me think of Jesus' ministry on earth. How do you put into words all the things that took place during his life? How can people honestly write books of the Bible as a biography of Jesus' ministry and make it believable? All I gotta say is thank God for the Holy Spirit who interprets things for us, and teaches everything. Man without the Holy Spirit how lost would we be?
It is so insane to me that a living, active, and powerful Spirit of God dwells within me. The same Spirit that raised Jesus from the dead lives inside of me, which is so crazy! (Read Romans 8)
I am so in awe of God. I honestly have been learning so much about the Bible, and it's truth in this past month that it’s also just as indescribable as everything that happened this month with our students. The Lord has really put a passion in my heart to know more about who He is. To not just say ya I did my quiet time today and read some scripture, but a desire, and burning passion to search, research, and search some more in order to discover what the text is truly saying. And the thing that I have discovered is that I can't even fully discover Him!
Deut 29:29 says that the secret things are kept for the Lord and the things revealed to us in the Bible are for us and our generations to come! So you know all that stuff that is unclear in scripture....eh um...revelation..., ya that's only because it’s a secret. Just think about it, Not only did He create everything and everything that has life right now is because of Him. So every living and breathing thing is dependent upon Him in order to survive, but He also created our brains and limits on our brains. We can't figure out everything about God! Isaiah 40:17-18 says if you put all the nations of earth together in one place, they would be "regarded by him as worthless."
That's kind of scary; all the billions of people together in one place are worthless up against God. The Bible says to whom will you compare God? What image? Well there is none!
Yet more amazing and in-comprehendible is that that Same God who is so powerful, sovereign and mighty so loving. So much so that He sent His son Jesus for me, that He intimately loves me, and that he desires a relationship with each and every person that he gives life to today. It's unbelievable, yet gives me an unspeakable joy as well.
Wow, ya so as you can see, I'm star-stuck, in awe of God. I can't stop thinking about Him, seriously. I'm like some love sick teenage girl; I am so lost and captivated at who He is. I am so intrigued by Him and who He is, that I keep digging and learning, and man do I love Him.
I love Him, I love him, I love Him. It's real, man I thought it was real before, but this is so much better. So much better.
Prayer.
Please keep praying for our students
Pray that the Lord will continue to woo and draw them to Him
pray that they will continue to ask questions and seek out Christ
Pray for my family
Pray for Me
For discernment in conversation
For stregnth
For continual humility.
God is good, Life is great!
Love you Mucho!!
Monica Zuniga
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